Dillusional Ramblings of an Insane Girl.

It's been so crazy busy here for the last couple weeks I haven't gotten the time to do anything.

Anyhow:

Pictures:  There is so many.  I have them on my myspace account.  If you want to see them check them out there, here's the album
And hereee's some video thanks to Rob's Gram.




It was lovely really.
Everyone got along, it was wonderful!

I got up in the morning and started getting ready and whatnot.  Went up my mums and she helped me into my dress.
My dad was on his best behaviour.
I didn't trip walking down  the aisle, lol.
I only teared up a little bit but didn't bawl.  (YAY)


And at the end of the day, it was originally planned that Rob and I would go out to eat together in private.  It was then decided that since everyone was getting along so well, we'd all go together.  And it was just so nice.  Perfect day.

Perfect everything. :) So happy.
Really. It was perfeccctttoooo.

I've been taking my birth control for about a week now.

So far so good.  No side effects.  I mean I've only been taking it a week, but no water weight issues (YET) or weight gain. (Only been a week :/)
I take it at 9PM everyday 'cause I'm always around at that time (Supposed to take it at the exact same time everyday.)
It does upset my stomach but the directions say it might do that in the beginning.  I seriously can't even think about eating anything after I take it at 9PM. (Which is okay, I shouldn't be eating that late anyhow.)

But the one super weird thing I noticed:  My fucking sense of smell is like uber sensitive now? XDDD  WHAAAT.  No lie.  The littlest smell is like BAM SUPER STRONG.  Good and bad.  Mostly bad though. XD

  It's so strange.

Everyone who I tell about me and Rob getting married, they ask about our plans, and I tell them.
They ask if we're having a reception.  I say no.
They ask if we're having a small dinner afterward.  I say no.
And they go AAAW BUT YOU SHOULD REALLY HAVE ONE.

SHUT THE FUCK UP.
FEED YOUR OWN DAMN ASS BEFORE YOU COME TO THE WEDDING.
YOU'RE INVITED TO SEE ME AND MY SOULMATE WED, NOT TO SHOVE YOUR FUCKING FACE.
I'M NOT PAYING FOR SOME BULLSHIT DINNER SO YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR FACE FULL OF FOOD,  I DON'T CARE WHAT TRADITION SAYS.

Fucking fuck.

Our plans are, go, get married, maybe just Rob and I will go out to eat somewhere nice together, all romantic and nice, and that's that.  And come home and lose my virginity.  That's the night's plans.  That's it.

Be glad I'm inviting you at all, seriously, and to everyone else who isn't invited and still has comments, shut the hell up it's none of your goddamn business.

We don't want no shindig afterwards. Get over it. 

I got my wedding dress, shoes, and accessories and whatnot.
Along with stockings.

Because God knows I didn't own a pair of WHITE ones.  So I got the prettiest pair of white lace top thigh highs from Boscov's.  Which stay up SUPER well on their own I was so surprised!  But because I'm a think-of-the-worst-case-scenario kind of person, I wanted a white garter belt too to make sure that they're not going to be falling down on me.

I think you've heard me rant here before about garter belts.
Garter belts are a fanfuckingtastic invention.  i hate pantyhose.  HATE THEM.  I feel like a have my crotch in a corset it's so uncomfortable, lol.
Love thigh highs for that reason, and a lot of them have such pretty lace tops, so pretty and feminine.
And paired with the garter belts which are just as lacey and pretty, they're the perfect pair.  And given you have a decent garter belt they will NOOOOT fall down.

Why the hell does the world not understand this. XD
Not only can you not find a garter belt ANYWHERE here anymore; (Walmart was the only place I could find them ever.  And they're shitty quality.  I went looking at them the past week, walmart has them marked down because they're trying to get rid of them, sell them out for good and not get anymore.)
But when you do get one from a store (like Victoria's Secret) I've found them to be pieces of SHIT that just pop open and don't hold the stockings.   Or in some trendy store once and a while you'll find them, but once again, they don't hold the stockings up for SHIT.

GARTER BELTS HAVE A FUNCTION.
SURE THEY ARE SEXY, BUT THEY HAVE A FUNCTION.  
TO HOLD UP YOUR GODDAMN STOCKINGS.

Anyway, I have to plug this girl's store (not really worksafe so don't click it if you're at work XD Lingerie. Come on.), I bought my white garter belt from her, and it's wonderful.  It's the most comfy garter belt I've ever worn and it's gorgeous.  And holds the stockings up so good. On ebay, worldsawayimport, aka IC France Lingerie.
Such a big selection. XD
And it's RIDICULOUS how fast she shipped it to me.

Anyway.

Just got back from wedding dress shopping.

The pros the cons:  Technically I was under budget, technically I'm over budget.
I know yesterday I said $200 for my dress. 

Well I did pay under that for the DRESS.
My dress itself was $99.

But with everything else (and tax added.  FUCK TAX.) it came to $350.
And I mean everything. 
This is everything that I got for $350:
-The Dress  /  ($99)
-The necessary dress zip bag /  ($10)  If I'm going to pay for it, I might as well store it properly.
-The underskirt slip thing to make your dress full. /  ($41.65)
-Undergarment Bra Thing / ($67.15) <-Abosolutely outrageous price on this, but it fit perfectly, like a glove, and all you girls know how difficult is to find the perfect bra, let alone something fancier like this.  I don't want to call it a corset, but it's function was pretty much to do the bra thing and smooth everything out all the way down to your waist.  I was reluctant to pay this much for this, but it was so perfect fitting. XD They got me.
-My veil. / ($58.65)
-That pretty sparkley comb thing above your veil. / ($41.65)  Once again, outrageous, for a hair comb clip, but the thing is truly gorgeous, and without it the veil doesn't look complete.  lolll.  This is how they get you.  You see how nice you look and your eyes well up with tears, and that's it....
-My shoes, / ($18.00) at Boscov's.  Nothing fancy, although they look very nice on me.  They're a simple white, heeled sandal.  I don't see the point in going all out with shoes when you're not going to see them at all under your long dress.  I needed a little bit of a heel to make me taller so I'm not tripping on the dress, lollll.  Which I might be anyway but,....walk carefully.....XD

All equals about $350.
Another plus: I was expecting to pay for all this on my own.  Which I did today.  But my dad told me he's going to give me the $350, that he's my dad and should pay for it.  I just feel weird asking my parents for money.  I feel like...a leech. XDD But I know it is tradition for the parents to pay for these things.

My dad is a little disappointed that I'm keeping my wedding so small, and not having a reception.
He keeps saying that you only get married once.
I  fully understand this.
1) I want to go the cheapest route.  Cheap is the wrong word I suppose...but I don't want to spend alot on a wedding!  A one day thing...I find it ridiculous!   2) Even if we WERE rich enough to afford a bigger thing, I would not want one.  This is how I want it, this is how I envision it being, this is how I think it'll be perfect.  I don't like receptions.  I don't like parties. XD  Especially formal ones!
I'm sticking to my guns on this.  But at least my Dad is happy now that he'll get to walk me down the aisle, instead of not being able to like if I went to the justice of the peace like I was originally going to.

Anyway, backtrack to me and my Mum dress shopping.
We went into David's Bridal and they were pretty snotty when I told them I was kind of on a $200 budget!  The front desk woman anyway.
Then she had a consultant come over to help us.   She wasn't so much snotty as much as it seemed like she was SWEATING the fact that I wanted a $200 budget, ROFL.   This girl just seemed nervous about that. hahaha.
Now I did go over budget with it ALL, but then again, I don't think I took into consideration all the other accessories and whatnot.  
My dad's jaw dropped when I told him what we paid for everything because it was so cheap.
But the consultant woman was so very helpful and nice, she was awesome.

They tried to con us into paying for alternations.  My dress is a size 12, and it's slightly loose on me. (LOL The down side to my weight loss!)  Now I shouldn't say it's loose.  We tried on another dress that was a 12 and it fit perfectly.  But when we tried on this second dress...we just knew it was THE ONE, my mom started crying rofl.  It's not loose, but you know how they want it PERFECTLY TAILORED to you.
This would've been another $55.  I said no thanks. 
It fits fine! (Not to mention see below my comments about being put on birth control, and then possible water weight gain, or something like that.  They'll take it in and then it won't fit me because of birth control weight fluctuation.)

The only thing is I literally have to halt my weight loss now so this dress fits come October.  Which is okay.  I am pretty happy with my weight now.  ESPECIALLY after seeing how good I look in dresses now, I used to cringe, but now I feel good.  Better about myself.

So yeah, My dress is BEAUTIFUL.    The girl said originally the dress was marked at $599.  Marked down to $99.
It's gorgeous.  GORGEOUS.  It has all this gorgeous beadwork and lace and oh goddd...My mom was crying.  I was ready to cry.  We came home and showed my dad, and my mum swore there were tears in his eyes.  My brother's girlfriend was at home, we showed her too, and she got teary.

I am so fucking excited now.  I seriously am getting teary NOW. lol it's going to be a BAWL fest.
I couldn't be happierrrr.

We interrupt this sugar fest with Sam's usual TMI statements.
Except tomorrow I have a gyno appointment.  My first one ever.  I am nervous and scared.  Mum told me I shouldn't be.
Since I'll finally be losing my virginity come my wedding night, I'll need to be on birth control.
This fills me with fear. XD I've read so many horrible things about it.  Weight gain.  Emotional Issues.  I know it'll be fine and it'll work itself out, and that I need to be on it because we don't need any little Rob and Sam spawn, YET  anyway.