Dillusional Ramblings of an Insane Girl.

FRUSTRAAATIOOOOONNN.

2009-11-06T03:22:09Z

My car is practically eating my pay check with everything I've been having to replace.

I got new glasses from the Vision Center in Walmart as well as an exam. Never had problems with them before.
Granted, there's a different doctor there than when I had my last eye exam.

1)Eye Glasses bitch talked me into getting Anti-Reflective Coating even though I was kind of against it because of experiences with it in the past. OH HAY GUESS WHAT I STILL HATE IT. So I took my glasses back, and after much getting blown off by them and then going back and harassing them again and again, and they made me new lenses without the coating. I hated the coating It made my glasses do horrible things with light, and my eyes, OH GOSH. and they're IMPOSSIBLE to keep clean with it they scratch like a bitch, and I am a messy dirty clumsy person.

2) I got the new lenses. Something still seems OFF. When I'm in Walmart and reading far away signs, or even close signs, any kind of words...are unfocused. Blurry, almost doubley vision. I've worn glasses since the 1st grade and never had this problem. I had the weird too strong effect of glasses when I would first get them, but not lasting like this.
So I go into the place and I can see they're not happy to see me AGAIN.
I tell them what's up, so the re-examine my eyes to check the prescription. This time it was slightly less strong than the first, and they agreed to order me the new lenses. FUCK. THESE BETTER WORK BETTER.

I'm so frustrated with them, and glasses and FUCCCCK. I just want to see clearly is all. :(

So not going to them again. Their eye exam is a joke. Lolll. And being that my eyes are so incredibly bad, I should probably be going to a real, decent optometrist anyway. Lesson learned okay. Just get me glasses that don't make me feel like my eyes are gonna cross.

Okay, here's the wedding post. XD

2009-10-25T00:56:28Z

It's been so crazy busy here for the last couple weeks I haven't gotten the time to do anything.

Anyhow:

Pictures: There is so many. I have them on my myspace account. If you want to see them check them out there, here's the album
And hereee's some video thanks to Rob's Gram.

It was lovely really.
Everyone got along, it was wonderful!

I got up in the morning and started getting ready and whatnot. Went up my mums and she helped me into my dress.
My dad was on his best behaviour.
I didn't trip walking down the aisle, lol.
I only teared up a little bit but didn't bawl. (YAY)

And at the end of the day, it was originally planned that Rob and I would go out to eat together in private. It was then decided that since everyone was getting along so well, we'd all go together. And it was just so nice. Perfect day.

Perfect everything. :) So happy.
Really. It was perfeccctttoooo.

This is all you get for now :D

2009-10-07T01:47:36Z

I'm waiting to get the pictures from everyone hehehe. :D
I'll make a big post about it later, but it went wonderful!

I am now Mrs. Franklin! lol (Legal name changed as well we did that this morning.)

He's really done it this time.

2009-09-29T01:05:06Z

My wedding is Monday. (October 5th.)

When Rob proposed to me on my 18th birthday and I said yes, my dad scoffed at us. Thought we were stupid. Thought my mom was stupid. (Rob went to her to tell her, and she gave him an heirloom ring to propose to me with, my engagement ring. It was very sweet and I love it.)
He scoffed and when we told him we were engaged he said, "No you're not."

When Rob and I moved in together in June and I began telling my Dad about our wedding plans he told me that "some people might frown upon you two living together, but I'd rather you do that than get married. You're too young," and basically made it sound like I shouldn't stick with one guy.
He helped us get this apartment. And told us we shouldn't get married.
But he told me, "Don't you dare get pregnant."
I've never had sex. Rob will be my first come our wedding night. How dare he say that like I'm a slut.

I love Rob. He's my best friend and my love.
He's the only person that I trust with my whole heart (besides my mom).
There is not even a tiny inkling in my mind that I would ever want to be with anyone else in any lifetime other than him. If he died tomorrow, I would never be with any other man. EVER.
These are not naive thoughts of a young person. He is my fucking soul mate.

I ignored my Dad. Thought maybe he didn't understand that he'd come around eventually.

So my wedding day is drawing near.
I bought my dress.
Bought everything we need.
Made my bouquet.
Planned everything with the church and the Pastor/my uncle.

I asked my Dad to walk me down the aisle. I have had problems with my Dad. But since I moved out we've gotten along better because I don't see him on a daily basis.
I am a forgiving person. He does not deserve to be forgiven but I continue to forgive him each time he breaks my heart.

I was happy that we were getting along and my father would get to walk me down the aisle.

Today while I'm at work one of my Dad's friends comes to the regiser. I tell her, "One Week to my wedding!"
She laughs and says, "I agree with your Dad..."
I go, "what?"
She says, "I agree with your Dad."
"Well what did he say?
"He told me that he'd rather you two keep living together and not get married."

........He still feels that way.
Not only that He's GOING AROUND TELLING PEOPLE THAT?
That is fucking humiliating.

I am so fucking hurt right now it's ridiculous. He's ruined everything else in my life, figures he'd ruin my wedding.

I'm trying with everything in my heart now to not let him do that, but I am so incredibly hurt. I could die.
Needless to say I am not going to have him walk me down the aisle. I can't.

I refuse to fucking stand there and put on a show, and pretend.
I refuse to make my wedding a lie. Him walking me down the aisle when he doesn't think I should be marrying Rob.

I called my pastor/uncle and he told me I should try to find it in my heart to forgive him and give him a second chance. That if I don't he will regret it and I might as well.

As much as I might someday, it definetely does not sit right with me to have him walk me down the aisle and give me away. Especially how bad he's hurt me now.

I confronted him about it. His only words were, "Well I told you how I felt before when you's moved in."
No remorse at all. Even as I stood there bawling hurt and upset.

I'm fucking done.
I love Rob and that's it

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2009-09-24T03:30:15Z

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Glenn Beck from FoxNews.

2009-09-23T15:22:33Z

My mom loves him so much.

But I cannot stand the man.
When I go to visit my mom it's usually around the 5PM time when his show comes on FoxNews.

You may or may not know who he is, but I've noticed him gaining more popularity. (Not sure whether it's because people actually like him or that he just kind of makes an ass out of himself.)

And she'll start lecturing me on how Obama basically = douchebag all the time.
Which I will agree I've been pretty disappointed with Obama this far, but I think I still would've rathered him versus the McCain/Palin monster that was approaching for a while...
But any time I disagree with her, she starts telling me how I'm brainwashed from the media, lolll.

I'm brainwashed? IT'S FOX NEWS. Glenn Beck used to be on CNN but they either kicked him off/he left because they weren't as one track minded as he is. I didn't mind him on CNN, sometimes he irked me, but since he left there for FoxNews I cannot watch the show without sitting there facepalm-ing the whole time.

Everyone's entitled to their opinion. And he could have his but it seems like anyone who DOESN'T hold his opinion is "brainwashed."

And he speaks contradictory 100%.

This is just pretty much my little rant of RANDOM.

Because he's always there haunting my visits with my Mom. And she feels so passionate about it all that she feels the need to start fights with me when I don't even bring it up at all. (I calmy say, "You believe this, I believe that, I don't care that you believe what you do, so please don't heckle me." and I'm basically told that I'm brainwashed for respecting different opinions, that there is only one way.)

I love her so much but loll HIMMMM. But still...when it's christmas/birthday and she asks for Glenn Beck books and videos I still buy them for her. Just because I love her that much. <3

Hayao Miyazaki.

2009-09-16T22:41:00Z

I totally forgot to update on this:
The boy took me to see Ponyo the other day. And it was fan-flipping-tastically adorable.
And beautiful. And wonderful.
Even Rob, who I know didn't want to admit it, enjoyed it, lol.
It was the first time I ever got to see a Miyazaki film in the theater, and OMG I hope I have many more chances because it was just amazingness on a giant screen. (That storm scene, omgomg.)
I seriously cannot wait for it to come out on DVD.

Having said that, Amazon.com is having a big Miyazki film sale: http://www.amazon.com/gp/feature.html/ref=amb_link_84968751_5?ie=UTF8&docId=1000411701&pf_rd_m=ATVPDKIKX0DER&pf_rd_s=center-3&pf_rd_r=0GEYN1MKEZ3GZYFSZKZA&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=485248091&pf_rd_i=130

I got two, Spirited Away & Howl's Moving Castle.
I've seen Spirited Away, but didn't own it on DVD. (Everywhere I'd go it was $30+, and I can't justify paying that much for a DVD honestly. For the past couple years I've been watching it on a VHS where I recorded it from Cartoon Network. XD)
And I've never seen Howl's Moving Castle so I'm uber excited. Both came in today, yayayayay. :D

I wanted to order more, but I know we should be saving money for the upcoming winter months. (Don't want to even think about the strain heat is going to put on our electric bill.)
I really wanted My Neighbor Totoro and Kiki's Delivery Service, but Totoro is sold out (or they don't carry it I don't know.) and Kiki is still too expensive for me. ($24...I'm such a cheapskate it is SAD.)

The Vma madness, lol.

2009-09-15T23:41:27Z

I didn't watch, but I looked for the headlines afterwards and watched the bits I wanted to. (Because MTV is a douche.)

LADY GAGA.
1) Her performance. Oh I love her so hard. She's so talented.
Fuck all the other tards who lip sync and shit. Oi. She's just awesome.
Seriously an artist.

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2) LOL ALL HER OUTFITS. OMG SHE'S SO RIDICULOUS I LOVE IT.

And that's not even all of them XD WOMAN, YOU ARE SUCH A FREAK, I LOVE YOU.

And obviously must mention the Kayne West thing.
Kayne West is a first class fucking idiot.
Someone get that boy some meds.

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Rest in Peace, Patrick Swayze. Love that man!

2009-09-15T16:22:01Z

Ghost and Dirty Dancing were wonderful and all, but To Wong Foo was always my favorite Swayze film. :D

He was an awesome dude and will be sorely missed.

I think my Rob is reading my mind.

2009-08-26T02:41:39Z

Or just listening to my well-placed hints. XDD

The other night he came into the bedroom with his facial hair shaved into mutton chop/sideburn-y things. Which is something he doesn't normally do but is INCREDIBLY FUCKING HOT. (There's something about sideburns. And mutton chops. no mustaches please. But the latter. MMMMMMM. I've been begging him to do it forever, and he finally did. XDD)

And then he made a comment about letting his hair grow a little bit longer again.

FUCK YESSSYAAYAYAYAY. lollll. FEMALE BONER.

I didn't expect this. XD

2009-08-22T16:21:03Z

I've been taking my birth control for about a week now.

So far so good. No side effects. I mean I've only been taking it a week, but no water weight issues (YET) or weight gain. (Only been a week :/)
I take it at 9PM everyday 'cause I'm always around at that time (Supposed to take it at the exact same time everyday.)
It does upset my stomach but the directions say it might do that in the beginning. I seriously can't even think about eating anything after I take it at 9PM. (Which is okay, I shouldn't be eating that late anyhow.)

But the one super weird thing I noticed: My fucking sense of smell is like uber sensitive now? XDDD WHAAAT. No lie. The littlest smell is like BAM SUPER STRONG. Good and bad. Mostly bad though. XD

It's so strange.

My father just added me on facebook.

2009-08-19T01:38:02Z

WTF lolllll.

Doesn't help that my profile picture is the one that I have in my livejournal user info.
I want to die of embarassment now, roflmao.

I seriously don't care how silly I look, I'm wearin' 'em.

2009-08-17T13:31:39Z

Latex gloves when I'm doing my cashier duties at Wal-Mart.

I am so goddamn sick of my hands being hideous from that place, because people are so dirty.
I get cuts/nasty-hangnails on my hands, not to mention they get dry and crack open from touching the money, and then because of all the dirty people, they ALWAYS get infected. ALWAYS.. So then my fingers fucking hurt, and they're red and puffy 'cause they're INFECTED, and then the same stupid customers are asking me why my hands are so red.

The one guy at work said I should wear the latex gloves that the maintenance guy wears, I'm like yeah go get me some. He did.
It's gonna be a new thing I'm pretty sure XD
Because uh, not only did my band-aids stay on the rest of the day, but by the end of the day, you could see the scum from what I'm touching (people, money, they're gross-ass bloody chicken meat.) on the gloves. Ew.

Co-workers were like LOL YOU GONNA DO SURGERY?? XD

I don't care though. I remember older ladies wearing them for that reason. Fuck I'm going to also.

RANDOM POST OF RANDOMNESS.
NO MORE INFECTED FINGER CUTS, PLZKTHNX.

Scratch that! A co-worker introduced me to something called LIQUID BANDAGES. WHAT IS THIS WIZARDRY?! IT'S WONDERFUL.

WE'RE NOT HAVING A RECEPTION, NO DINNER, GET OVER IT.

2009-08-16T01:11:46Z

Everyone who I tell about me and Rob getting married, they ask about our plans, and I tell them.
They ask if we're having a reception. I say no.
They ask if we're having a small dinner afterward. I say no.
And they go AAAW BUT YOU SHOULD REALLY HAVE ONE.

SHUT THE FUCK UP.
FEED YOUR OWN DAMN ASS BEFORE YOU COME TO THE WEDDING.
YOU'RE INVITED TO SEE ME AND MY SOULMATE WED, NOT TO SHOVE YOUR FUCKING FACE.
I'M NOT PAYING FOR SOME BULLSHIT DINNER SO YOU CAN SHOVE YOUR FACE FULL OF FOOD, I DON'T CARE WHAT TRADITION SAYS.

Fucking fuck.

Our plans are, go, get married, maybe just Rob and I will go out to eat somewhere nice together, all romantic and nice, and that's that. And come home and lose my virginity. That's the night's plans. That's it.

Be glad I'm inviting you at all, seriously, and to everyone else who isn't invited and still has comments, shut the hell up it's none of your goddamn business.

We don't want no shindig afterwards. Get over it.

I just bought a pair of blue jeans.

2009-08-09T15:24:05Z

WHAAAAAT.

SAM DOES NOT WEAR JEANS?! OR EVEN PANTS FOR THAT MATTER!

I don't know what inspired this phenomenal event, but... lolll I now own ONE pair of jeans.

We were walking past the rack, and I said, Oh these look nice, Rob gave me the WTF look knowing that I do not wear pants/especially-jeans, and said, "Go for it, I imagine skirts get old after a while."

I tried them on and I swear magical heavenly sparkles appeared with a choir of angels because they fit fucking perfect, rofl. (One of the reasons I do NOT even BOTHER shopping for pants/jeans...because they never fucking fit right.)

I have seriously not bought a pair of jeans since....maybe freshman year of high school? Almost 6 years ago? XD

Hair.

2009-08-05T17:37:32Z

I don't know if I've mentioned it here lately, but I'm trying to grow my hair out. Long. Looong. Like I want it halfway down my back long.
I've had my hair short for so long and I'm sick of it. There's only so many hair styles I can do with it because it's so short.
The longest it ever was, was when I was in kindergarden and it was slightly past my shoulders and BEAUTIFUL (If I could find a picture I'll post it.)

I've been trying since probably February to get it to grow but it simply doesn't. And when it does you can't tell because it's curly and bounces back up towards my head anyway! (And I love my curly hair, I just wish it were LONG.)

I've been reading crap on the internet, and stalking longhair and I've learned some very valuable tips.

Basically, I think my hair doesn't grow because it's so dry and unhealthy, and I torture it.
Because I've been following many of the rules from longhair and this wonderful site and I've already noticed my hair growing longer, and healthier. The only slightly naughty thing I plan on continuing to do is dye it .(And even this I've considering stopping...but even my natural color, which used to be a strawberry blonde, isn't strawberry blonde anymore it's just BLONDE BLONDE BLONDE. And I will hold on to being a redhead as long as I can, dye if I must, rofl.)

anyhow, that site (here) is probably the most useful source for curly haired people ever I think. Now that girl has ethnic hair, but if you have severly curly hair, black or white, it doesn't matter it's practically the same. I've been teased my whole life for having "black hair" because it so is. XD It's so thick, and dry, and frizztastic.
But seriously read her shit if you got curly hair. I thought it was a load of crock (her method of putting conditioner in your hair and NOT washing it out, but just leaving it to dry), but it works so well, and leaves your so soft and nice smelling, and not crusty and drying like with styling products. I'm totally gonna pimp the Organix Hair products right now, they're wonderful. Natural, and not sticky and slimy, and they smell so gooooood.

Rofl, I have about 8 cans of curl mousse that I had stockpiled to take back to Wal-Mart though now because I will not use them now. Without a receipt. They won't be pleased I know, but there return policy is you can still get store credit without a receipt. (MWAHAHAA)

Help feed the kitties at the animal shelter!

2009-08-04T16:09:42Z

I posted this via my myspace, it's more or less for our local animal shelter, but in theory, it could work for your local shelter as well.

I have already okayed this with someone from the Hazleton Animal Shelter so it's a go:

If you are like me, and you love animals, you'd love to donate to your local Animal Shelter as much as you can. But also, if you are like me, you are as poor as sin and can't afford to do so. Ever.

However Iams is running a promotion on their website, where they will mail you a couple for a free bag of cat food. You are allowed one coupon per household.
My idea is, if each of us sends in for this FREE cat food coupon, we can donate food to keep the kitties fed at no cost to us.

You have no excuse! It's free! Simply click the link below, fill in your information (Name, Address etc. It asks you if you want any other free samples of anything, that is entirely up to you. Just make sure you fill out the form COMPLETELY until you come to the page that says "EXPECT YOUR COUPON IN *** WEEKS. Make sure you complete it or you will not recieve the coupon!)

http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnBnZXZlcnlkYXlzb2x1dGlvbnMuY29tL3BnZWRzL2lhbXNjYXQvYnJhbmRzYW1wbGVyLWxvZ2luLmpzcA==

You better do it. If not I will come find you, lol. It's very easy, and for a good cause.
If you're unable to/don't feel like going to buy the food and deliver it to the shelter yourself, let me know and I will arrange whatever needs to be arranged to get the food to them.

Here's a pic of some of the kitties that have graced the shelter. You can feed 'em!

If you have any other questions for the Hazleton Animal Shelter, or if you're looking to adopt, their myspace page is here: http://www.myspace.com/hazanimalshelter

Lolll. Had to post the photo for guilt factor. I hope it persuades some of my lazy buddies to do this.

Godddd, I wish I could adopt a kitty. :/ Some day I will live in a place that allows animals. *sigh*

I don't care how many goth points I lose for this.

2009-08-04T02:59:06Z

I FUCKING LOVE LADY GAGA SO HARD.
TAKE ME AWAY WE'LL GO DANCE IN YOUR GLITTERY DISCO PALACE.

I have seriously listened to nothing BUT for the past week.

Poker Face

LADY GAGA - Just Dance

Not to mention she's so fucking literate and intelligent. (Slightly full of herself, but whatever, I can deal with that.)
Love this interview.
Pisses me off when ladies who create music/art with sexual undertones are written off as sluts.

CORALINE!

2009-07-31T03:15:46Z

One of my friends at work let me borrow Coraline. I've wanted to see it forever, but the boy didn't want to go see it in the theatres, and I don't want to pay $25 for a DVD (the prices when things first come out are ridiculous) so she let me borrow it.

DEAR LORD. LOVE.
BEST MOVIE I'VE SEEN IN A LONG TIME.
FANTASTIC.
PROBABLY WORTH PAYING THE $25 YOU WOULD TO BUT IT NOW.

And it came with fancy 3D glasses, which I usually don't buy into that bullshit, but this...was....cool.

so yeah. CORALINE. <3

Garter belts!

2009-07-25T00:18:55Z

I got my wedding dress, shoes, and accessories and whatnot.
Along with stockings.

Because God knows I didn't own a pair of WHITE ones. So I got the prettiest pair of white lace top thigh highs from Boscov's. Which stay up SUPER well on their own I was so surprised! But because I'm a think-of-the-worst-case-scenario kind of person, I wanted a white garter belt too to make sure that they're not going to be falling down on me.

I think you've heard me rant here before about garter belts.
Garter belts are a fanfuckingtastic invention. i hate pantyhose. HATE THEM. I feel like a have my crotch in a corset it's so uncomfortable, lol.
Love thigh highs for that reason, and a lot of them have such pretty lace tops, so pretty and feminine.
And paired with the garter belts which are just as lacey and pretty, they're the perfect pair. And given you have a decent garter belt they will NOOOOT fall down.

Why the hell does the world not understand this. XD
Not only can you not find a garter belt ANYWHERE here anymore; (Walmart was the only place I could find them ever. And they're shitty quality. I went looking at them the past week, walmart has them marked down because they're trying to get rid of them, sell them out for good and not get anymore.)
But when you do get one from a store (like Victoria's Secret) I've found them to be pieces of SHIT that just pop open and don't hold the stockings. Or in some trendy store once and a while you'll find them, but once again, they don't hold the stockings up for SHIT.

GARTER BELTS HAVE A FUNCTION.
SURE THEY ARE SEXY, BUT THEY HAVE A FUNCTION.
TO HOLD UP YOUR GODDAMN STOCKINGS.

Anyway, I have to plug this girl's store (not really worksafe so don't click it if you're at work XD Lingerie. Come on.), I bought my white garter belt from her, and it's wonderful. It's the most comfy garter belt I've ever worn and it's gorgeous. And holds the stockings up so good. On ebay, worldsawayimport, aka IC France Lingerie.
Such a big selection. XD
And it's RIDICULOUS how fast she shipped it to me.

Anyway.

I think I broke my ass.

2009-07-21T21:15:18Z

No really. SHIT.

Rob and I were goofing off, wrestling. (Not that kind of wrestling! CLOTHED WRESTLING.)
I yelled "SEPHIROTH!!!" (think of the "one winged angel" choir), and I went to kick Rob in the chest. He grabbed my foot, yanked it and I went down on the floor like a sacks of bricks and broke my ass.

Not just my ass though the whole left side of my body is PAIN.

Roflmaoitwassofunnythoughsdkfjlsl;adkfjkasldfkjsadfsjakdflasd.

Rob: "Not only are you NOT Sephiroth, have you EVER seen Sephiroth KICK anybody?"

ROFL The funniest PSA for teen driving ever.

2009-07-18T02:21:54Z

I fucking love Rob Riggle.

Parent Love.

2009-07-17T01:15:52Z

I just have to mention how much better my relationship is with my parents now since I moved out.

Especially my Dad, considering we were constantly on and off of good terms with each other.
And my mom too.
I think even they get along better. (Or maybe it's just that I'm not around to see them fight anymore, lol.)
It's nice, a whole lot more loving.

It's just really nice.

Random, but true.

Babeeeh!

2009-07-16T23:08:45Z

Here's a photo of Rob holding his little sis's new baby, Jack. ^_^

So tinyyyy.

After we went to see her and the baby, Rob's like aaaw makes me want one. ROFL I'm like O_O....

I adore children, some day it will happen (I know that's what he meant.) but not right now.

Cuteness, though, yes? :).

Rob's nephew.
My soon to be nephew, lol. And my soon to be sister-in-law.

SQUEAL.

2009-07-16T22:49:52Z

Just got back from wedding dress shopping.

The pros the cons: Technically I was under budget, technically I'm over budget.
I know yesterday I said $200 for my dress.

Well I did pay under that for the DRESS.
My dress itself was $99.

But with everything else (and tax added. FUCK TAX.) it came to $350.
And I mean everything.
This is everything that I got for $350:
-The Dress / ($99)
-The necessary dress zip bag / ($10) If I'm going to pay for it, I might as well store it properly.
-The underskirt slip thing to make your dress full. / ($41.65)
-Undergarment Bra Thing / ($67.15) <-Abosolutely outrageous price on this, but it fit perfectly, like a glove, and all you girls know how difficult is to find the perfect bra, let alone something fancier like this. I don't want to call it a corset, but it's function was pretty much to do the bra thing and smooth everything out all the way down to your waist. I was reluctant to pay this much for this, but it was so perfect fitting. XD They got me.
-My veil. / ($58.65)
-That pretty sparkley comb thing above your veil. / ($41.65) Once again, outrageous, for a hair comb clip, but the thing is truly gorgeous, and without it the veil doesn't look complete. lolll. This is how they get you. You see how nice you look and your eyes well up with tears, and that's it....
-My shoes, / ($18.00) at Boscov's. Nothing fancy, although they look very nice on me. They're a simple white, heeled sandal. I don't see the point in going all out with shoes when you're not going to see them at all under your long dress. I needed a little bit of a heel to make me taller so I'm not tripping on the dress, lollll. Which I might be anyway but,....walk carefully.....XD

All equals about $350.
Another plus: I was expecting to pay for all this on my own. Which I did today. But my dad told me he's going to give me the $350, that he's my dad and should pay for it. I just feel weird asking my parents for money. I feel like...a leech. XDD But I know it is tradition for the parents to pay for these things.

My dad is a little disappointed that I'm keeping my wedding so small, and not having a reception.
He keeps saying that you only get married once.
I fully understand this.
1) I want to go the cheapest route. Cheap is the wrong word I suppose...but I don't want to spend alot on a wedding! A one day thing...I find it ridiculous!   2) Even if we WERE rich enough to afford a bigger thing, I would not want one. This is how I want it, this is how I envision it being, this is how I think it'll be perfect. I don't like receptions. I don't like parties. XD Especially formal ones!
I'm sticking to my guns on this. But at least my Dad is happy now that he'll get to walk me down the aisle, instead of not being able to like if I went to the justice of the peace like I was originally going to.

Anyway, backtrack to me and my Mum dress shopping.
We went into David's Bridal and they were pretty snotty when I told them I was kind of on a $200 budget! The front desk woman anyway.
Then she had a consultant come over to help us.   She wasn't so much snotty as much as it seemed like she was SWEATING the fact that I wanted a $200 budget, ROFL. This girl just seemed nervous about that. hahaha.
Now I did go over budget with it ALL, but then again, I don't think I took into consideration all the other accessories and whatnot.
My dad's jaw dropped when I told him what we paid for everything because it was so cheap.
But the consultant woman was so very helpful and nice, she was awesome.

They tried to con us into paying for alternations. My dress is a size 12, and it's slightly loose on me. (LOL The down side to my weight loss!) Now I shouldn't say it's loose. We tried on another dress that was a 12 and it fit perfectly. But when we tried on this second dress...we just knew it was THE ONE, my mom started crying rofl. It's not loose, but you know how they want it PERFECTLY TAILORED to you.
This would've been another $55. I said no thanks.
It fits fine! (Not to mention see below my comments about being put on birth control, and then possible water weight gain, or something like that. They'll take it in and then it won't fit me because of birth control weight fluctuation.)

The only thing is I literally have to halt my weight loss now so this dress fits come October. Which is okay. I am pretty happy with my weight now. ESPECIALLY after seeing how good I look in dresses now, I used to cringe, but now I feel good. Better about myself.

So yeah, My dress is BEAUTIFUL.    The girl said originally the dress was marked at $599. Marked down to $99.
It's gorgeous. GORGEOUS. It has all this gorgeous beadwork and lace and oh goddd...My mom was crying. I was ready to cry. We came home and showed my dad, and my mum swore there were tears in his eyes. My brother's girlfriend was at home, we showed her too, and she got teary.

I am so fucking excited now. I seriously am getting teary NOW. lol it's going to be a BAWL fest.
I couldn't be happierrrr.

We interrupt this sugar fest with Sam's usual TMI statements.
Except tomorrow I have a gyno appointment. My first one ever. I am nervous and scared. Mum told me I shouldn't be.
Since I'll finally be losing my virginity come my wedding night, I'll need to be on birth control.
This fills me with fear. XD I've read so many horrible things about it. Weight gain. Emotional Issues. I know it'll be fine and it'll work itself out, and that I need to be on it because we don't need any little Rob and Sam spawn, YET anyway.