Dillusional Ramblings of an Insane Girl.

Rob and I have found a place!  It's a tiny little apartment, very tiny.  But it's just the two of us, so that's all we need.

I'm starting to get funny over leaving.  Like tearful XD
I've known we're going to this place for about a week now, but it didn't hit me until today when I started packing up my stuff.
This is so completely new to me.  I have never moved before.  Never.  
I keep thinking how my mom won't be there when I'm coming home from work.
My dad even though he gives me hell I will miss somewhat.  They both give me hell.  I keep hoping they say something to piss me off so I don't feel so teary about leaving, lol.  
I won't see my brother everyday.  This makes me feel even more sad because I'm so close with him and he makes me laugh so much.  He won't be about 3:00 every day getting off the school bus, bursting into the house yelling something silly.  Even if I was remaining here, he wouldn't, he graduates this year.  (Ohhhh *tears* we're both growing upppp.  It's so stranggeee.)

And the thing that makes me most tearful....
My kitties.
As most apartments are, there are no pets allowed.  Even if they were, my kitties are technically my mother's kitties and she wouldn't have me take them.  Oh, I am going to miss having them all day with me here so badly, I could die.  I know this sounds quite pathetic, but my cats have always been my best friends and just about everything I do at home, is with them, lol.  Even them just sitting beside me.  I talk to them, they talk back to me (Well they mew back at me.)  They do and go everywhere with me around the house.
Not having them there is going to be extremely weird, and the thought makes me bawl uncontrollably.

I am quite literally bawling while writing this entry, lollll.
They're not sad tears, I am so incredibly happy we found a place and that this is happening but.  Nostalgicccc.
It's absolutely ridiculous too.  This apartment is not far away at all.  It's a couple streets away, it's within walking distance. 
But it's just the principal of not having these things and people in the house with me anymore when they always have been.

I am quite spoiled, and have never had to deal with a lot of parting ways.  I've never really had anyone I was especially close to leave me/pass-away/part from me or me from them for any reason.  I haven't really had that many people I was ever even close to, lol.  And I've never been involved in very much ever, so I'm not very much used to one scenario ending and another beginning.

They're my family, and they annoy the living fuck out of me sometimes but generally I will miss them.

But whatever I'll just walk over and visit.  All the time. :p

For the heads up, When the time comes that the computer has to make the move to the new place, I will give one last temporary farewell.
We will almost definetely have internet, but when we will get to setting that up, who the hell knows.  Internet, while it is a wonderful thing, is not on the top ten most important things to get done, lol.